“Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.” –James 1:12
After weeks spent debating whether we should give Lexi up, I finally resolved to do it. I woke up one morning certain that I couldn’t go on. I downloaded a surrender form from the Humane Society’s website and filled it out. It was early; my husband was still in bed. I waited to tell him my decision. Meanwhile, Lexi still needed to be walked, so I clipped on her harness. I thought we were taking our last walk together. It didn’t go so badly. The training we’d been doing was having an effect. When we got home, I glanced at the form on the desk and thought, “I’ll talk to Scott tonight.” But that day things seemed a little better. The surrender form lay on the desk for a few days, and finally I threw it away. Three years later, Lexi and I are still walking together. On very bad days, we may feel ready to give up on God. We feel certain that we can’t go on. Maybe we withdraw from our friends or renege on our commitments. Meanwhile, maybe we feel the urge to pray. Things seem a little better. We don’t lose hope after all. And many trials later, we’re still walking with God.
Dear God, Bless not to give up on you but to keep walking in faith. Amen